February 11th was set for our inducement at 9pm. This was a day that we were looking forward to and fearing at the same time. Knowing that as soon as I was in labor it was the beginning of the end of Eli's short mortal life. It was hard to know what to feel and at times we tried to not feel anything. That morning I played with Lana and Koen and helped get them ready to go to Uncle Tarik and Aunt Jamies house were they would stay while we were at the hospital. Elliott went to his dad's house to finish up working on Eli's casket.
That afternoon we all went on a family adventure to the base of Fourpeaks which were still covered in snow from a late winter storm that came two days before. It looked really beautiful and almost out of place with the desert all around the snowy peaks. We stopped at a wash that was normally dry but that now was flowing with the water from the melting snow. We were walking and playing with sticks that El had cut into play swords.
We made boats and found treasure rocks and fought off imaginary monsters with our swords and spears. Of course after fighting so many fierce monsters it was time for a break. I sat on the bank with Koen while Elliott and Lana bathed their feet in the cold water and paned for more treasure rocks with their hands.
Koen continued fighting off the monsters (bushes) with the play swords and spears while we relaxed.
As fun as it was it was still hard to ignore the fact that our little Eli was spending his last hours with us. The weather and scenery were beautiful and we felt that Eli had put in a special order for us. We had originally hoped for him to come earlier however looking back we realized we needed this time together as a family.
We can't deny that our Heavenly Father knows our needs better than we do and we are so grateful that he does.
We can't deny that our Heavenly Father knows our needs better than we do and we are so grateful that he does.
When we got home we all showered and got ready to go. We stopped by Tarik and Jamies house around 7:30 to put the kids to bed. The kids were excited to be at their cousins, but they were also very aware in their own ways that we were anxious. I called the hospital and was informed of a two hour set back to our inducement time. The next two hours felt longer than the entire day as we waited to go in. Tarik and Jamie were trying valiantly to lift our spirits and distract us from being worried. They have been very kind to us in so many ways these passed months and we are so grateful for them.
5 comments:
We have been thinking about you guys a lot lately - wishing desperately that there was more we could do to ease your burden. We are thankful for your wonderful friendship and you are such a wonderful example to us. Let us know if you need anything.
Thank you for keeping us updated and allowing us to be there to feel the sweet spirit of Eli. My hurts for your joys and sorrows of dealing with such a loss, but I am also strengthened by your amazing testimonies and example. We are so blessed to have you in our lives. Thanks for all your do.
Love, Gaylen
Tamara and Elliott,
we are so sorry for your loss. It sure seems like the end is close. Many celestial spirits are getting bodies and not staying very long. You have a special family. Grandma Vonetta knows of your loss. She loves her children so very much. We do too!
Hi Tamara! You are so such a strong and beautifil person and mother. I admire your courage and strength in such a difficult time. I would really like to attend the funeral if I am able to, would that be alright with you?
I was very happy when Ashley gave me your blog. I have been wondering about you and how you are doing. The last time I saw your dad was at Ephriams open house. You are such a strong person and our thoughts and prayers are with your family during this hard time.
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